Actions Speak Louder Than Words

So here I am.. at 8:50PM on a Thursday night, concerned about how I'll find the time to do anything in the next two months, worried about some of my grades because I procrastinate or just flat out forget about my work, and of course.. filling out the infamous Common App. Typical stress, but hey, who am I to complain. As the average teenager would say, "I'm over it".

The second I realized I had forgotten about this blogpost and that it had to be written and posted within the next hour, every excuse I have ever told, or thought about, created a filmstrip across my brain. The first was my computer malfunctioning in some way (even though, in reality, that does happen all the time, so I probably shouldn't cry wolf) forcing me to hand-write my post and hand it in for partial or no credit. The next excuse was having to complete the Common Application for 11+ schools and stressing myself out so much that it was almost impossible for me to write a blogpost about absolutely nothing and anything at all at the same time. After meticulously trying to decide which excuse to use, I settled for not using one. My conclusion and reasoning brought me back to the realization that even if I did have a good excuse, that wasn't going to compensate for the credit from actually doing the assignment. The post would still be late, and the only satisfaction I would have would be that I, all by myself, thought of an excuse clever enough to feel acceptable. So, I put the Common Application and my brain on hold for a bit so I could prove to myself that I wasn't as lazy as I thought, and OBVIOUSLY so I could blog....! And, since my computer is actually malfunctioning right now, I'm "texting" this entire blog post with my two thumbs. Yes, on my phone. Typing every endless thought into an e-mail, copying and pasting into Blogger.com, and if you can actually read this right now, I'm successfully posting this. JUST to prove to myself and of course to my grades, that I'm not that much of a lazy procrastinator. But since I waited and forgot for so long that I was supposed to do this, and I wanted to put it off and make up an excuse, I guess I'm contradicting too.. Then again, you can call me a lot of names but actions still speak louder than words.

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